Simplicity.

PRISCILLA'S BLABBERS.

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I've moved to tumblr :)

Http://ddeartumblr.tumblr.com

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Actualllly....thinking abt it..
Slience between us wasn't thattt bad :)
Listening and singing songs in the car with you
was good :)
Hmmm. I shouldn't expect more :/
This is good enough :)

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I don't talk to you often because I don't wanna seem
too clingy. Not that I don't bother to make an effort or anything.
I'm not as confident as you. I've my insecurities.
Honestly, I feel so low when I'm with you or talking to you.
I feel that I'm not good enough. Yeah and it's the fact. Not that
I'm emo or whatsoever. Thats how I feel.
I mean I wish I can be super thick skin and confident. Who doesnt?
Prolly tell the world that I like you openly and don't care what others think.

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I can admit anything and everything
but when it comes to you, I can't. No matter what.
I've tried but I really can't bring myself to admit
that things cannot be.

Oh no just now I've this urge to do something
stupid! I almost tell him that I miss him alot and the fact that I still
like him! I was on his chat box already and all I had to
do was press send and our friendship would be uh oh!
But thankfully I didnt! Phew!!!!!

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People tend to choose what they want to hear, they don't bother whether if it's the truth or not.
They just believe it.
They never bother to find out the truth.
I used to do that, but now Is one ear in then out the other ear.
If I wanna know the truth, I'll ask.

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HappyValentine'sDay!!! :)

Oh no no! I saw him today! :( no no no.

We had PnW today and we were suppose to
say one thing that we need to do/give up this year.
I said I have to face my fears and one of it is
facing him cos I know that when I see him, I will
like him over again.. as in these two weeks I did not
see him and I intend to not see him for a period of time
but today I did and I'm back to square one. But Angele
reminded me that I needed to face my fears, Face up to
my feelings..Stop running away from it.
I always tell people avoiding or ignoring things is not a solution
but here I'm trying to avoid/ignore it.

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I wanna tell him so many things, but
I'm afraid it will change our friendship
which I wouldn't want. I like things
the way they are now :) ya I know I said
it a zillion times. Because I really do.
Is just that..there are times when I really
miss him alot and I wanna tell him through
Facebook or msn personal message but
because I'm afraid of miscommunication. Cos
honestly I would never dare to pick up my courage
to tell him that I miss him alot directly. It's a feeling
I can't explain. he doesn't read my blog anymore and
it's better. There would be no more miscommunications
anymore :) but I dunno how to get to him. I really wanna
tell him I miss him :) I don't need an answer or anything.
I just want him to know that's all :) but I'm afraid things will
never be the same.

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I miss him dearly.
It's one of those moments where
I don't feel like doing anything, no
mood. I can't stop thinking abt him, not even
for a day. I miss him:( but he'll never know.

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But it's better than not being in my life at all.

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I rather 'just be friends' than nothing at all.

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It's 2011. Yes, I said I wanna put it behind me..all this liking thing and start a new year
but I admit, I'm not able to do it. I don't wanna keep fooling myself that I'll be able to let
it go when I have no intention to.
I still like him but I don't have any intention to get into a relationship or whatsoever or for him to like me back.
It's that weird pleasure in liking someone who doesn't likes you back. If not when he told
me that he didnt feel the same way about me..I would have already let him go then. Why bother?
It's that feeling.
When the time is right, I'll let him go gradually (: let it be for now.

The truth is I still care and always will. I’m not the type of girl to let people walk out of my life and pretend that they don’t matter anymore. I may not like that person anymore or talk to him or her but, I still care. I’m always going to think back to my life and say I wondered what happened to so and so. I hope they’re all right. I will actually mean it. That is the type of person I am. Once you’re in my heart, you’re there forever.

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Great dinner at coffee club today with Steph, Char and GS:)
The pancake thingy was damn nice:)
Should order that again some other time :)
Wish we could have more of this gathering.

Anyways, no more heart beat racing, no more
awkwardness, no more going speechless:)
Although I can say I don't feel anything
for him now, he still means alot to me :)
New year, new start:)
I refuse to bring anything from the past to 2011 :)

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I miss him so much :(
I said I will be straight forward when
I wrote him the letter.
But somethings are just not meant
to be said infront of him.
I fear of his responds.

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I just realize that I've not been blogging for quite sometime now.
Someone said that I've become happier now. Is it true? I don't even know.

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I wish my heart gave me a chance to choose.

Why do I even bother? Seriously?!

You're half right. I mean nothing to you at all, but you certainly
mean alot to me.

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Steph's right.
As long I do it with sincerity,
If the person wants to accept then alls well,
But if the person doesn't want to, then I've
already done my part.

I'll never know how he feel and he will never
know how I feel.

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Never thought that the ppl who we were be there for,
were the ones we really never expected it to be.
Not in a million years would we have thought that he
and she would have confided in us and we were the ones
by their side today :)

Expect the unexpected :)

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You knew what you were doing &
you knew it would hurt me,but somehow,
that still didn't stop you.

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God's love is so overwhelming :)
I've never felt so much love before.

Had Spiritual prep today.
And we had to reconcile with
each other..so I told him whatever
I wanted to say, and alls good :)
It's so sad to see ppl blaming him
when it's not his fault :(
Haiz oh wells.

Caring is a good thing
but sometimes, caring tooo much
can be a problem too :(

Just wanna give him a hug :)

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Priscilla, have the courage to make things right again :)
It's all in your hands.
A moment of embrassement or a lifetime of regret?
It's all up to you :)

For now...how are you?

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It hurts the most to let go of someone
during the time you love him the most.

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I rather you tease me than not talk to me at all:(

After reading all my posts, I find that this
blog is damn contradicting! Haha'

Our small or stupid conversations
mean more to me than you'll ever know.

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:( my back hurts everytime it rains.
Fell and hurt my spine when I was in sec school :(
And now it always hurts like crazy when it rains, especially
these few weeks. Can't even sleep properly.

Now you know why I keep asking you
to see a doc.
Oh wells.

What the F! Do you know what you even saying?!!!!
What?! You want that I'll give you THAT! Irritating!

Went to IT fair today:)
Helped Angele check out her netbook
and went to see my Sony Nex-3!!
I want it!!!!!
Was freaking pack at like 1pm. Don't this
ppl have to work?!
Anyways, nothing much -shrugs-

Things are still not right:(
I wonder how long will it last.
Can we just talk things out, please?
I really don't want to lose you as a friend:(

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Should I change to Tumblr or wordpress?
Wordpress can lock posts.
Tumblr..not really suitable for blogging
leh.

Feel like drinking soup :)

& I can't conceal that I miss you.

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I think he's mad at me :(

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I've so much to be grateful for :D

Although I may quarrel with my mum and bro,
at least Ive a mum and a brother. Some don't even have.

Although my job sucks like shit, at least Ive a job:)

Although is a one sided love, it's okay :) at least
I know what is like to love someone.

Although my day is going bad, at least I'm alive :)
Etc...

And I thank God for that :)

Count your blessings instead :D

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Mentally and emotionally tired.
But after crying, I feel so much better :)

He like someone then like la.
Like I can control who he likes like that.
*rollseyes*

Good luck and all the best! :)

You don have to like me back,
Just let me like you.

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Whatever it is, Istilllikehimanyways.

Blabbers:
I just wanna lay my head down and
go to sleep.
I feel damn tired. I don't wanna think anymore.

Sometimes I have this urge to tell you how I feel and stuff
cos keeping it inside of me is damn torturous
But, I just wish I had the courage to tell you.
-shrugs-

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To whoever is reading this, this is my prayer for you :)

Dear God,

this is my friend, whom I love and this prayer is for her/him.

Help her/him live her/his life
to the fullest.
Please promote her/him
and cause her/him to excel
above her/his expectations.

Help her/him to shine
in the darkest places
where it is impossible
to love.

Protect her/him at all times,
lift her/him up when she/he needs
you the most,
and
let her/him know when
she/he walks with you,
She/He will always
be safe.

:)
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Morning mass tmr !!!! MUST wake up! MUST!!!!!!

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Suddenly, I woke up tearing
And realize I miss him so bad :'(

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A cup of wine before bed.
Now waiting for the wine to kick in :)

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My mind says stop caring cos it's not worth it. On the other hand, my heart says Continue caring cos you know you still care no matter what. So should I or should I not ? Cant my heart and mind just agree on one thing. It's so difficult.

Anyways I'm gonna be like straight forward with you from now on :) it's better this way:) and be as straight forward with me as possible like hardcore straight forward kind of things. Don't need care abt how I feel, just wack only:)
But....SOMETIMES I can't bring myself to say the things I want to say to you like straight forwardly...just yet. So I'll write in my blog or Facebook:/

Emo post:
These few days I've been hardcore emoing :( keep blaming myself for what has happen :/ can't help it. I feel that this is cause by me la. So much for trusting the wrong person. Luckily I dint tell the person all of it :/ I should like open my eyes big big and see clearly.hmm now I know:)

You're harder to let go of than I thought you'd be.

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When I care, I really care la.
As in I'm serious abt it when I say it la.

Can't I even joke?
Then, next time is just all serious talk.
I just tryna make the convo like
not so awkward???
Then I get this. Wow.

Sorry if I made you angry by saying that.
At least I know what to do now :)

And I promised i dint tell him anything about you.
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I'm not perfect.
No one is.
I've low self-esteem,
I'm freaking sensitive,
Sometimes I don't think before I speak:/...etc
But I'm trying to be the best I can be.
I'm still learning,
We are all still learning :)
I hope this doesn't change the way you all
look at me.

I can be trusted. I can.

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Be safe :)

I find myself saying that all the time
when he goes wherever.
Oh wells.

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Be safe. Be well

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time~

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Health is important.
Take a risk at anything you want..
just not your health.
But in the end..it's your choice after all.

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